A Charade

It seems to me all a charade,

Just say what you’re wanting to say.

Why continue living this game,

Why go on in  agonizing pain?

You say, ‘Who knows what will happen now?

We’ll see what the future holds,”

but even now, you can’t even look at me,

As the heartache has taken its toll.

Love was lost so long ago,

what is it we are waiting for,

it’s too late to turn back now,

it’s too hard to close this door.

And so the draft come barreling in,

As our hearts grow colder still,

towards love, towards each other, towards all others,

as ever weaker grows the will.

And so we continue to lay our heads,

on the same cold and heartless bed,

Only to rise once again,

In the morning, our thoughts left unsaid.

And so, the emptiness continues to grow,

With indifference latched in tow,

And sweet bitterness takes ahold,

Until we are ready to let it go.

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Not tonight

You say you walk on egg shells,

but you’re a fucking liar.

You walk on the coals you lit,

one after another.

you say that you are tired

of the constant accusations

just give you a chance you say,

neglecting my heart-wrenching frustrations.

Another skirt, another eyelash,

Batted just your way.

You say, “I have no control over that.”

As you dig into another slice of cake.

You’ve no concern for the hell I’ve endured,

hoping one day you’d notice the pain,

Of the woman in the shadows waiting,

the diamond, now a dead-weighted chain.

She’s the woman you once chased,

with promises of undying love and affection

Now, you simply await your escape,

to finally be rid of your affliction.

She is waiting too,

Like  a moth to a flame, she’s tried.

But what’s been done, can never be undone,

as what was once undying, dies.

She is wretched now, as her shoulders slump this night.

She is preparing to tell her 9 year old son.

Daddy isn’t coming home tonight.

The schoolyard

Didn’t they teach you in school

You don’t treat people this way

Didn’t they tell you,  didn’t they show u

Or were u just absent that day.

Was kindness ever talked about

Was compassion ever discussed at length

Was loyalty,  honesty, steadfast integrity

And devotion to loved ones ever raised.

Didn’t they warn you about selfish desires

Didn’t they caution you against greed.

Didn’t they teach you to put others before yourself,

And forewarn of the perils of conceit?

What happened to chivalry

And dedicated responsibility

Did consequences ever matter

Or were you simply praised no matter what the results may be.

Is that why I never mattered

Not my feelings, my hurt or my tears

When you chased after another

Assuming I’d always be here

Did the school room teach you nothing?

Did you learn nothing from your peers at play?

Even the school yard offers the lessons

That a classroom’s 4 walls may neglect to make.

It’s unfortunate

The life lessons you were never taught

You thought you were winning this game

Cheating your way to the top

But you’re not.